oh holy night.

I do not exaggerate when I say that I am a cryer. 
I cry often while watching the news, reading a blog or article, thinking about the past, worrying about the future, talking to friends

I cry when I am happy and I cry when I am sad. 

My tears flow freely more often then I care to admit. 

The one place where I find myself crying often, is while singing in church.

it's not that I get sad while in church (although of course I have been sad at church before), or that it happens with every song we sing, but certain songs stir my heart and relieve my soul and so the tears flow faster than TLC's rendition of "Waterfalls". 

And nothing brings me to tears faster than, "Oh Holy Night."

Oh holy night
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night of the dear Savior's birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Till he appear'd and the soul felt its worth.

about the time we reach the line, 

"Till He appear'd and the soul felt its worth." 

I just lose it.

Jesus appeared and the soul, our very soul felt its worth. 

our life has meaning. our soul has worth. 
and it starts with the birth of a savior
on a quiet, humble night, in a dirty, stinky stable.

and then we sing, 

A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn!
Fall on your knees
Oh hear the angel voices
Oh night divine
Oh night when Christ was born
Oh night divine...

and i bawl my eyes out. 
knowing how thankful i am for the gift of a savior and the gift of truly knowing my worth.


blessings to you where ever you are, and have a very merry christmas!