closing time.

celebrating at the end of year banquet.

another school year is drawing to a close for us.

it is crazy for me to think that debo and i have been living on a college campus for nearly five years now, as long as we will have been married (come june).

since we have started this life together we have spent time with five different staffs of resident assistants. every year our staff is unique from the last. along with supporting these students, we have also gotten to know so many different others from so many different places, with different backgrounds, and different hopes and dreams and directions.

it is such a beautiful thing to be involved in these students lives. to see them learn, and grow, and take on this thing we call real life.

in truth it is a honor.

our life has been one full of many interruptions. hospital visits at 3am. late night conversations about the human condition and God. tears over the loss of loved ones, broken engagements and relationships, roommate conflicts, and frustrations. visits filled with happy news of jobs found, marriage proposals, exciting new internships, and joy over things being learned.

as much as we listen, as much as we "advise,", and as much as we get to know our students, i always find that it is really them who have blessed me with such growth. i have learned so much from how they live, love, cry, speak, hope, and dream. their lives impact me and as we watch some graduate at the end of each year my heart feels heavy at their leaving. after all, since we live among students it is them who have been with us as we embarked on married life, parenthood, and the simple daily grind. they see us when we are at our best and sometimes, yes, at our worst.

our 2012-2013 staff of RA's

what a blessing it has been to be able to do life with these people, even if it sometimes is only for a short while. every year is a new start, and each year has a beautiful (albeit chaotic) ending. 

"it's the circle of life..."

so, this is our life in a nutshell. 

i'm a ghost and i don't think i quite know, where we're gonna go?

little updates.

--- i have some great girl friends here at IWU. it has been such a blessing this year with the new RD staff. our weekly coffee dates, our movie nights, game nights, nights out, driving through snow storm to get chinese food nights, it's been lovely.

--- i recently joined a bible study (it's about time, i know). we're doing a the beth moore series called "breaking free." i have never done a beth moore bible study before, or read anything by her. i'm sure like all popular christian writers/speakers/etc people have mixed opinions of her. however, i'm truly enjoying the study. it's refreshing for me being since i haven't been in one for over two years, and the topics are meeting me in a lot of ways of where i am at. the videos we watch in correlation with the daily reading material are also insightful, funny, and just good. i feel myself letting go of my need for control and slowly but surely letting my trust in God persevere.

--- debo got accepted into Geneva's graduate program for Higher Education. he's doing the institutes program which means he has class two weeks in the summer (8 hour days), and 1 week in the winter, and the in between time he has reading and online work. it takes 3 years to finish this way, but it is very conducive for his life here. especially since he has summers off and a winter break (both times where he would have class). he also can then do his work on his own time. i'm really excited for him!

--- i am such a sucker for valentines day. i use it as an excuse to buy red, pink, and white things and make cute little gift bags for friends and my kiddos, and bake pink things for my boys. i made a bunch of homemade chocolate pretzels for my girl friends. i did both milk and white chocolate and then sprinkled them with red & pink sprinkles. then i packaged them in cute lil baggies. ha! i'm such a nerve. for our hodson staff of boys i made strawberry cupcakes with a whipped cream cheese frosting. i even added red food coloring to the frosting so it would turn pink, and then i sprinkled all the cakes with heart shaped sprinkles! even boys need some pink in their lives.

--- for valentines weekend we are going to be livin it up. it's been a while since we've done any date days alone with each other, since we usually go out with friends or residents most of the time. so debo and i our going to get a couples massage friday night (which i can't wait, cause my lower back has been killing me lately), we are also going to go see a movie and grab lunch on saturday. pretty simple but perfect for us. sunday afternoons debo plays ice hockey, so i am probably going to see the movie "Valentines Day" with my girls here. it should be a nice weekend.

--- our friend allison davis spent the week with us (she got here sunday and left this morning). she works with as an admissions counselor/recruiter for a Lithuania study abroad program with a Christian school there. she spends most of her time in Lithuania but she has tours several times a year at various Christian colleges getting students interested in the program. i love when she comes to stay with us, because although she has long days and she won't get back home till 9 pm we have great conversations over tea. she's such an amazing girl, and an encouragement, i love her. it's so cool to see how God has been working in each of our lives.

--- half marathon training is going great. i have been really disciplined about getting my workouts/runs in everyday. i also feel myself getting stronger, especially my lungs. it's such a great feeling, and i love having a goal to work towards.

--- fresh daises, a pear candle, and cup of green tea our making the apt very cozy on this sunny winter day, and the most beautiful comfort:

"Remember these things, O Jacob for you our my servant, O Israel. I have made you, you are my servant; O Israel, I will not forget you. I have swept away your offenses like cloud; your sins like the morning miss. Return to me, for I have redeemed you." ~ Isaiah 44:21-22

"Beloved, whatever we grip to bring us satisfaction is a lie -- unless it is Christ." ~ Beth Moore

wishing you all a lovely weekend. hope you can make it out of the snow where you are!

peace & love,

thoughts, frustrations, fears, and love.

so funny thing. i went out to coffee last monday with a group of my girl friends here at IWU. we went to our favorite coffee shop and began discusses res life politics and grad school. although, i loved catching up with the girls; i must say i returned home to be quite scared, frustrated, and perturbed with the idea of grad school. this isn't a new thing. it seems everytime i think about grad school i'm unsure/frustrated/and worried. why you ask? here's my list:

1. grad school is expensive. we're talking at least 15-20 thousand dollars. (at least for the programs i've been looking at).
2. i am already in debt because of my undergrad. so is my husband. add that debt together and well the thought of putting more debt on top of that is crazy.
3. the masters degree i would most likely pursue is not really going to bring in a lot of money. and although making a lot of money isn't really important to me, it's still tough to spend more money on a degree that probably won't "pay for itself" as some peoples grad degrees do.
4. i'm not sure what masters program i want to do. i have ideas or think i do, but then i wonder, "do i want to do this for the rest of my life?" then i think, if i'm not even sure what i want to do, how can i justify spending money on it?
5. i wonder sometimes if i feel more pressured to get a masters because i have a useless undergrad degree. and i feel that i need to get it just to have it, like some kind of security blanket perhaps. and then i think it would also just be to prove myself in this world.

i found myself breaking down in front of Debo and our RA and friend Fussy about all these thoughts, frustrations and fears, and well lets just say they both were truly uplifting and encouraging. they reminded me of God's sovereignty and hand over our lives. i really struggle with trust and control, and well you have to realize that God has got you. if we trust and hand over the reigns that we grip so tightly sometimes He leads you where you never thought you could go. i sometimes worry too much about this world. this place. this very temporary and fast moving place. i am not defined by my career. plus an amazing and/or big money-making job can come as quickly as it can be taken away. we can try to hold tight onto these things but they can all be taken away.

see the truth is i am so scared. i'm afraid i'm not good enough, smart enough, or brave enough. i get caught up in the American way of life. in that i need a regular 9-5, 6 figure job to be somebody. i feel judged and worthless because my job is the very opposite of that. i wear sweat pants and chase, feed, change, craw with, play and handle 7 different children (not all at the same time mind you) 5 days a week, all day. there is nothing professional about my job, and no i don't make a lot of money. however, i LOVE my kids. i LOVE my job. however, when i compare it to my friends in grad school starting down paths of wise career choices for themselves, or my friends who are now young professionals, i feel inadequate. when my grandma asks me, "when am i going to get a "real" job?" i feel inadequate.

this isn't the first time i've posted about these things on my blog. this isn't the first time i have felt these things so strongly. it's just so hard, you know? i feel our society wearing me down, feeding me lies, making me feel small and helpless and inadequate. i feel like i failed because i am not ambitious, and i don't know what grad school to go to or what program to start. i feel like because i didn't obtain a business degree, or a nursing degree, or some other practical sort of degree, i failed. i feel so much pressure and fear for my life's path that it keeps me up at night.

then i step back and look around me. i have seen how friends have watched love ones deteriorate slowly in health before them, and others who have lost people in a blink of an eye. i see how natural disasters strip already impoverished countries of the lives of its people and then remember how even the wealthy countries are not exempt from earths disasters. i read headlines of the rich and famous, who have ideal jobs, and all that money can buy, die--overdosed and alone. death reminds me of how temporary this life is, how much we have no control over so much of our lives, how meaningless so many things that we (our culture) put some kind of value in are. i sometimes ask God, why? then i remember how Jesus came before us as a man, lived a short 33 years on earth, and died a excruciating death in order to save us all. was any of that fair?

i know this post is long, and the tangents seem endless, but it's therapeutic in a way for me to be able to be honest with myself, and frustrated with this world, and most importantly angry with myself because i let all its bull get to me. i put value in things that aren't truly valuable and what i get out of those things is fear.

then i remember. i get a glimpse of hope:
- an encouraging and loving conversation with my husband and one of my other closest guy friends.
- a note the next day from debo saying: "I know you get down and out about your job but God has gifted you in a very special way. The Devil loves to discourage people from their gifts, talents, and joys. Don't let him do it to you. Everyone loves you and appreciates what you do, especially me. love, Debo"
- i get so scared about my life and the path i should take and then i read scripture and hear the love of God pouring out and reminding me the truth: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." ~ Philippians 4:6-7

through all of it it's God saying to me: "it's OKAY." "i love you and i've got you." and it's beautiful, true, encouraging, faithful, hopeful, gracious, merciful, peaceful, unfailing, wondrous...LOVE.

in the end it's the only thing that matters isn't it?

so do i know about grad school? no. do i know what happens after i finish this time in my life nannying? no. do i have worry about these things? America would say "yes", but God fittingly and serenely says, "NO."

you don't need to worry either. i just wanted you to know.

shale, screen your worry from what you won't ever find.

thanksgiving has come and gone and with it the long weekend. debo and i had a relaxing time with friends and each other. i think it was all much needed. God has been so good to us here in indiana, in more ways then we could have ever imagined.

the weekend before thanksgiving, hodson hall teamed up with it's sister dorm evan's hall in it's newly annual "Evening of Elegance." basically it's an excuse to get dressed up and eat in the banquet hall, with pretty decorations, and some live entertainment. here are some snap shots from that event...

debo and i.

the boys and i were striking our band pose.

hodson & evan's staff.

our beloved hodson staff.

and yes that is me randomly dressed up in a pinapple that looks like a kiwi costume. debo had this stupid thing for res-life advertising.

good times. good times.

so, with the end of thanksgiving starts the christmas season. i look forward to festive activities ahead with our family, friends, and of course our hodson boys. it's hard not to love this time of year. here are some pictures from past holidays.

me & some of my cousins.

our staff last year re-enacting the nativity.

i also, look forward to cuddling w/ this cutie. my chance.

*sigh* lots of love.

i've left bethlehem and i feel free.

Fall is officially here! hello october. hello cool fall weather. hello leave changes, pumpkins, and mulled cider.

i dare say that i am greatly enjoying the ushering in of fall this october. it is my favorite season of the year and this is my favorite month. recently i have been dragging my poor husband on these walks with me through the local high school(s) cross country path that makes it way past the athletic fields, brush fields, and farm fields. the line of trees in the background make for a lovely view which i am hoping will only grow more beautiful with the changing colors.

in other news i have found a local pumpkin farm that debo and i are going to be going to next weekend. i'm so excited, it has hay-rides, you pick pumpkins in the fields, it has corn mazes, a country store, petting zoo, and more. our good friend tall john is coming to visit us next week as well, and we shall be dragging him with us on this adventure, with most likely a few of our hodson boys, and hopefully a nice group of the other RDs.

things have been so busy as of late. debo and i were talking about how we are lucky to get and hour together. between our boys being over, coffee dates with my girlfriends and students, and just other things that book our time (for instance, last night i was on a panel discussion about female relationships/camaraderie in our sister building) and work during the day, its enough to say "bring on the weekend!" tonight debo and one of our boys, fussy, is helping our friend andra move a couch, so i'm going to have andra and fussy over for dinner afterwards. then it will be off to the gym and over to steph's apt for The Office. good times. :-D

on a completely different note...its been so cute bundling my kiddos up and taking them outside to play. they crack me up. also, keagan who is not even two yet is obsessed with letters. he already knows what most of them are and he can say for practically all of them the sounds they make. he doesn't even talk yet besides some basic words, but he knows his alphabet! it's crazy! being with kids so much, and talking to moms def. makes me look forward to the day i become a mama. thats a few years down the road mind you! (i'm only 23) but i think it such a beautiful thing and i am really looking forward to it.

i hope its becoming Fall where you are! :-D

i cannot do it all on my own.

just thought i'd post some photos of our 2nd year at IWU so far.

(our '09-10 staff of hodson boys <3)

(at the local water park)

(our sister staff, love these chicas)

(my husband being cheesy and romantic)

(debo had his staff dress up as soldiers for pictures, he just looked so cute i went in for a kiss)

far beyond the blaring street lights.

life is never picture perfect but some moments are quite sweet...

this start of our second year at IWU has been truly been wonderful. our RA staff this year is AMAZING. it's been so much fun and so easy to be real with them. last friday i ended up at the movies with two of our guys to see Julie & Julia because Debo was a punk and didn't want to go with me. we've together all gone frisbee golfing, campus golfing, swimming, making food, hanging out, and just becoming a close knit family of Hodson Hall. it's been such a blessing.

it has also been great already having built relationships with other students here and just continuing on with them, and it also makes meeting new students even easier. it's great to see guys (and girls) just feeling comfortable walking into our apt now (when the door is open, mind you) and feeling comfortable about sitting down and hanging out with us.

the RD staff this year is also great. i have been getting to know a lot of the girls, and although friendship building is a process, i def. know there will be some deepened friendships at the end of this year. i have had some lovely conversations already, and some good hang out time. i grabbing coffee this evening with a few girls tonight.

most importantly, i feel a peace with God that i have not had for such a long time. i feel like i remember why i'm here, and why my life has so much more meaning than what culture deems appropriate.

and with all of these amazing moments, yes, the imperfection has shown its face...

some conversations with our boys have been really heart breaking. there have been some situations i just can't fix and somethings are just out of my control. sometimes i still get down about what i should be doing next. i get down and frustrated with baby-sitting and loose patience with my kiddos. sometimes Debo and i argue because of something i said. sometimes i don't feel close to God, and i get distracted and caught up in other things.

however, even with these blemishes to a "picture perfect life" there is such a peace in knowing that He has got my back. a peace in knowing that when i catch myself worrying, and i think of how faulty and a waste of time it is, i start to stop. there's a peace that my main focus is shifting from emptiness (pointless distractions/worries/things) to being filled up with the Spirit. there's a peace in giving my time and energy into others, and loving them as much as i can. there's a peace in surrendering, even when it scares me, to the Lord.

i realize my posts lately have been God focused/spiritually saturated. and the last thing i want to sound like is a christian on a rampage or a christian cliche. the thing is i just see God moving me because i'm finally moving back to Him. it's just refreshing not to be obsessing over my money, my body, and my "me" time (i.e.: myself) and retreating instead into my Savior's arms.

"Come and hear, all you who fear God, and I will tell what he has done for my soul. I cried to him with my mouth, and high praise was on my tongue. If I had cherished iniquity in my heart, the Lord would not have listened. But truly God has listened; he has attended to the voice of my prayer. Blessed be God, because he has not rejected my prayer or removed his steadfast love from me!" ~ Psalm 66:16-20

we could be heros. forever and ever.

so ellie (the four year old i watch) and i were sitting down to lunch. our topic of conversation shifted from "who made the united states?" to "how does God make babies in mommy's tummys" to my personal favorite question of the day, "What will Keagan say when he puts a baby in his wife's tummy someday?" note that keagan is her nearly 2 year old brother.

hahaha. wow. gotta love little kids.

this week has been so busy. i'm absolutely exhausted. full days with 2 or 3 kids, and then busy nights with students and getting to know new Resident Director's (and spouses). i must say that i love hanging out with the new RD's. it's been so good. this is just a great staff this year and i love everyone's willingness to connect and hang out. i'm hoping to see The Time Traveler's Wife with a bunch of the girls tomorrow.

in other news, i feel like God's continuing to show me the meaning of having my identity in Him, along with layering on humility and patience. i def. feel humbled in just being a full time baby sitter with a college degree. i def. need to be patient as i trust that God will help reveal what direction i want to go in with my future and bring me to a job/career that i can feel passionate about. and i def. need to remember i am not defined by who i am with or what job/career/talent/passion i'm doing or fulfilling. i am defined first and foremost by Him, and He is enough. everything else will fall into place. it's just trusting, praying, waiting, and then pushing myself to going out and achieving what i am called to next.

right now, it's just this (babysitting/figuring out if i want to get my masters/or what career-job is for me)... and well, that's an okay place to be.

and so it begins...

although the summer heat is now in full swing here in indiana. i know deep down that summer is moving fast. which even though i adore fall, i hate to see summer go because i despise winter. however, i refuse to think about all of this now and instead just remind myself that summer lasts thru september anyway.

indiana wesleyan university hired 10 new RD positions this year, which considering that there are 15 positions all together is kinda crazy. debo and i were very excited about the prospect of more new RD's because when he was hired, there was only 1 other newbie, and most of the RD's were going on their 4th year or more. the new people hired are made up of individuals a lot closer in age to us, some married, some single, and some married w/ children. it has been really nice getting to know them this past week, and thru out this weekend. it's just refreshing to be able to build some new relationships with our peers who are experiencing (or are going to experience) the same positons we are in everyday. we are very excited for this upcoming year. we can't wait to have all our guys back in hodson hall, but we also just hope that along with our student relationships we can build some close friendships this year with a lot of these new RD's.

this year i'm also going to be taking on more kiddos. no schedule is really set yet, but it looks right now to be a mixture of my usual two (ellie 4, keagan 1 1/2), with a 2 1/2 year old boy named caleb, and a 18 month year old boy named dovev. on monday i'm going to have ellie, keagan, and caleb. i'm hoping that i will be able to handle 3 or more. i know i'm going to be even more exhausted at the end of the day, but the extra money will be very helpful to us. the only downside is the hours might be kinda weird when i'm watching ones of different parents. for instance i would usually start at 9 to watch ellie and keagan, but with caleb i have to start at 7, which means i might start at 7 and then work 8+ hrs because sitting times overlap. it should be interesting. the kiddos are all very cute though.

with the sitting i also need to be researching IWU grad program stuff, and start working on getting ready for that. you know applications, getting loans/grants, possibly the GRE. blah. you know those tedious things you have to do to go to school. i'm just hoping that i am making the right decision. i guess i'm just second guessing myself, but talking to different people i hear of so many different grad programs that i just really want to choose the one that is right for me. i want to make sure that counseling is indeed where i should be heading. we shall see. perhaps higher education is the field i'd rather pursue. *sigh* who knows. i just wish i was that super driven ambitious person who had big plans and the will to overcome all odds. i'm just so intimidated i think i just want to make the right choice before i dive in, and the problem then becomes "what is the right choice for me?" hm.

it's crazy training time right now for debo, and it's the start of Nanny time for me.

i hope this 1st semester can be a bright one.

i guess it couldn't be as daunting as last years!

i wish i could be watching this cutie too!

(this is izzy, brian and janelle jensen's little girl)

hello sunshine.

it's hard to believe that we have almost made it through our first year here at indiana wesleyan. where did the time go? students finished their finals this past week, and most are now gone for the summer. graduation was this morning for the seniors, and really besides them all who are left are those staying for the 3 week crash courses of May Term. you can def. feel the emptiness on campus compared to the 3,000+ students who live here during the school year. they get done so early here, and they still manage never to start until after labor day.

the weather here has been so wonderful. i've been soaking up the sun and warm breezes, trees are blossoming like crazy, flowers are blooming, and IWU did not dissappoint with its array of tulips (my favorite flowers). i've been so tempted to pick just a few, i do hate to uproot them, but at the same time i love having them in my apt. so i did, and they are currently full blossom on my window ceil.

i had the kiddies outside for a good four hours yesterday. all that running around sure did tire keagan and myself out, however, of course not ellie, she refused to fall asleep during nap time. *sigh* ah well. i hope to tire them out some more in the coming weeks as the weather stays nice.

alas, not too much to update on. after may our life gets crazy again for a summer filled with, dare i say, a bit too much travel. i'm kinda just soaking in the calm breeze before the whirlwind hits. so i'm off to relax with debo, and maybe play some old Sega Sonic games with him before i curl up outside on a blanket. may your weekends be lovely and oh have a tulip or two from me to you.

13.1 miles baby!

so ironically, the day after my last post...the sun made its way to indiana, and it has been absolutely beautiful ever since, and i have felt so much better ever since!

currently today it is 72 degrees, there are live bands playing outside the dorm, and people are all about sprawled on blankets and socializing. it's lovely.

i started out my day this morning by waking up at 6:30 am, and getting ready to run the "Hodson Half-Marathon." it's a half marathon that happens here at IWU every year. i have never run one before, but truthfully it was one of my life goals.

it was crazy, considering i've never run more than 5 1/2 miles at one time. however, i kept a steady pace with debo, and one of our RA's for 9 whole miles!!! i was so proud, then we walked mile 10, ran 11, and mixed walking/running for 12 and 13. we finished in 2 hrs and 28 minutes, which for me was just great, i felt so accomplished. then after eating something and drinking a ton, i showered, put on a sun dress (yah warm weather) and flip flops and hung out with one of my girlies outside sprawled on a blanket in the warm sun. i'm not going to lie, i'm super super super sore. the last 3 miles were a killer, and my muscles had already started to feel it pretty hard after mile 7.

i just feel so happy. the weather, the run, getting to the run with debo, seeing one of my favorite girls, and just relaxing outside to music. i feel like i'm glowing. lol. i also feel like a dork for just writing that!

i hope you all have a lovely weekend, and i hope the weather is blessing you where you are! :-D

a wednesday afternoon.

i've opened all the windows in our apartment letting a refreshing light breeze into our home. the sun is shining, the high for today a balmy 68 degrees, and this red-head is soaking it all in on her day off. it's perfect rollerblading weather! so, here's a snapshot of those well loved blades. what a nice pair those two pairs make? hehe. i'm going to get debo to go out with me this afternoon or evening for a glide about campus.

on another note. last semester our desk manager, Fussy, gave us a turkey because he knew we were making a pre-thanksgiving dinner for the RA's. however, at the time i didn't need it since i had the poultry already bought for that meal. he reminded me this week that indeed that 7 pound bird is still in our freezer and he said we should have him over for dinner. so, yes indeed, i have a turkey roasting in my oven, stuffed with stuffing, and a plan for red skin mashed potatos, corn and green beans. mmm. hopefully it will turn out okay, Fussy gave me his mom's recipe for stuffing so i decided to do that kind instead of my own. however, his recipe didn't give rounded measurment sizes or anything, which i guess with stuffing you usually wing anyway. however, it's just a little different from my stuffing so we'll see. all smells good though. we invited a few others over to join us so it should be fun.

lastly, i recieved my vincenzo rizzo watercolor painting late last week, and got it framed and hung up in the living room area of our apt. here's a shot of it nicely framed. so pretty. it's been nice having finishing touches of decorations hung about our walls.

i hope you all have a lovely day.

meetings, conversations, laughter: our boys.

tuesday is the annual business meeting in our apt at 6 pm. which means debo's staff of 7 guys comes over and they cover various RA duties, etc. i'm usually in on most of their meetings, since well it's in our apt and it's not like we have a huge place. i actual don't mind i enjoy listening, discussing, and laughing with them. and with 7 of them plus debo, you can imagine there is a lot of those 3 things going on.

thursday consists of covenant meetings which go from 6-8pm. this "meeting" is really for the staff to hang out with each other, and take a break. usually the guys are over and we play rockband, go out to random spots, eat homemade creations (i've made), discuss, and of course laugh. we've currently been watching Band of Brothers during that time which is awesome, because i haven't seen it all the way through. it's so addicting, it is so well done.

i love our guys a lot. they have made this experience for us just so enjoyable. i've had so many great conversations with these men, and i think in turn debo and i have offered them a peek into what married life looks like. good, bad, silly, honest, and raw. i feel like these guys have become a part of our family here in a way.

so just to give you an idea about these fellows. i'll give you a brief synopsis of each of them, using 3(-ish) adjectives a piece, making it short and sweet.

1. tiki [ARD]. political guru. faithful. a good heart.
2. ben [RA - 3 north]. honest/thoughtful. calming. mischievious.
3. micah [RA - 2 west]. real laid back. punk rocker. easy to chill with.
4. vince [RA - 2 north]. sweet heart. super easy going. intricate thinker. (he's our game night buddy)
5. curt [RA -1 north]. one of a kind. hilarious. opinionated. passionate. (and in his own words, "a good egg.")
6. chris [RA - 3 west]. outgoing. vibrant. lots of energy. my kid brother.
7. ryan. [RA - 1 west]. laid back. gentle spirit. our outdoors guy.

good eggs. good eggs.