1. i'm tired of inconsistent weather. such is the burden of springtime, you learn to expect that. but we went from gorgeous 60-70 degree weather all last week, to snow, cold and clouds all of this week. i got spoiled with my afternoon walks with baby girl. i got spoiled with getting a chance to get out and soak in some sun.
2. i'm tired of inconsistent naps. i know this isn't abnormal for a 3 month old. she sleeps multiple times a day from anywhere between 20 to 45 minutes. yes, i know i should revel in any sleep times as a chance to get some things done however, it's hard to start something when i don't know if my little girl will wake up fast or sleep longer. i sort of long for routine, so i know and can plan accordingly. however, with a babe this young the only truly routine part of the day is bedtime and wake up time and since she sleeps through the night (with only one night feeding, if that) i know i should not complain.
3. i'm tired of not having many friends with kids. perhaps it is because we live on a college campus. perhaps it's because we are young....but well we know only a few people with kids. i long for some more moms with babies my age who live close and will hang out all the time. it's just hard to go to certain things sometimes with our kidless friends. baby girl is now past that stage where she could sleep anywhere and now when she is tired she will let you know it...and it means leaving, pronto. it's also hard too because at her age it is not easy to leave her with a sitter. her bedtime routine entails a lot and well she is still just really little. perhaps i'm not ready...but also i don't think many students would be ready either to watch her and put her to bed.
that being said,
4. i'm tired of not having any family close by. i mean we literally have none. i miss my mum. i know if we lived close we would do a lot with our family and i know our family would have our backs. plus, along with the whole sitter bit, grandparents are def. an exception as they make the best babysitters ever, and the most reliable and trustworthy ones you could ask for.
5. i'm tired of not having the freedom to just pick up and go. since i breastfeed it's just not possible to be gone for long because my boobs won't let me...not to mention there is the whole keeping up your supply. it's just hard...since i'm am her primary sustenance as of yet. plus breast milk is best and formula is so damn expensive.
6. i'm tired of missing out on things. with a new babe, you lack mobility...and in our lifestyle that was key. now it always feels like either me or debo have to take turns on going to certain things when we used to always be able to go together.
i don't regret being a mom. i knew it would take sacrifice.
but well, i'm tired.
and i just feel like complaining about it.
i do love this sweet face though.
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