cool kids never have the time.

this year with are students is almost at its close. by tuesday, officially all of our students will be gone for summer. wow, our first year in colorado will be solidified in july.

i have loved the community we have been a part of here at CCU. from our amazingly open co-ed staff, to meeting & mentoring with beautiful women, to taking 15 of our students to jamaica, to working for an amazing family with two precious little boys, to be being almost married 3 years (this june) and turing 25 (this june as well), to finding an amazing church and making great friends there. what an amazing year.

however, in this moment as i look back (and if you usually read my blog you know i am quite a nostalgic lady), i find myself looking forward instead.

have you ever just had one of those moments when you really wanted change? you wanted to be more then what you have been. you want to strive to be greater (and not in a "I'm so great, look at me way" but rather "look at what God is doing in my life and with me. He is so good.").

i want to be giving. i want to be less selfish and more generous. generous of time and energy and money.

i want to be confident. i want to love myself and see myself the way God sees me.

i want to be faithful. i don't want to give up before i begin, i want to know that i can do anything through Him.

i want to know more. i want to be better with names, have more soul-talk coffee dates with students, and hear their stories. i want to lead a small group of young women next school year.

i want to be a blessing. a blessing to my husband, our staff, our family, and our friends. i want God to use me to encourage, support, love, help, honor, give, trust, and be a reflection of him to others.

i want more. more from myself, more from my life. i don't want complacency or apathy to control me. i want to rise above.

i want change.